LOVEverblooming

柑橘系のアロマオイルが入ったマッサージオイルでマッサージしたり、オレンジやベルガモットのアロマオイル炊いてたら少し胃痛が穏やかになったよ

香りの力ってやっぱりすごい

As I massaged my body with massage oil including citrus essential oil and I used sweet orange & bergamot essential oil, I'm less suffering from stomachache!

The power of perfume is amazing!!

頭痛と体の痛みに加えて、胃まで痛くなってしまって、なぜだかめまいがする

鎮痛剤もなかなか効かないから、こういう時はアロマセラピーで少しでもリラックス

うーん、痛いどうしたら痛みが和らぐのかなぁ

ま、とにかく今日は早く寝ようっと

To add to a heavy headache and pains in my body, I'm suffering from a heavy stomachache and somehow I feel dizzy...

Since painkillers don't work enough, I make the most of aromatherapy like sucha situation!

However, I wonder how I can remove these bitter aches...Anyway, I'll go to bed earlier to take much rest tonight.

今日ヒマちゃんがちっちゃなちっちゃな花を咲かせたの

直径約4ｃｍっていう小ささに家族みんなびっくり

愛情込めて育ててきたヒマちゃんがこんなに可愛い花を咲かせてくれたから本当に嬉しい

あと2つ蕾があるから、みんな元気に花を咲かせてくれたらいいな
Such a small sunflower!!


Today, one of my smal sunflowers I call them Hima-chan bloomed finally!!

My family and I got so surprised to see the tiny sunflower because it was only 4 centimeters in diaeter :->

Anyway, I feel so happy to see the pretty flower as I've grown it with my lots of love ♥ﾟ*:;;:*ﾟ♥ﾟ*:;;:*ﾟ♥ﾟ

Since they still have 2 buds, I'm reallu looking forward to their flowers! And I'll take their seeds to plant them next year, too!! I think I can see much more small sunflowers than this year XD

なんだか今日は、色んな不調が体に出てきてしんどいなぁ

頭痛や体の痛みに加えて、パニック障害症状が久しぶりに出て胸が苦しかったんだぁ

しばらくパニック障害の症状は落ち着いていたんだけど、体調不良が重なるとやっぱり今でも症状は出てくるみたい

でも幸いな事に気分的には落ち着いているからよかった

無理しないで、体休めてあげようっと
Hydrangeas


I don't know the reason but I feel so bitter to suffer various symptoms of depression and panic disorder...

To add to my heavy headache, pains in my body, I felt painful with choking because of panic disoder after a long time.

As my symptoms of panic disorder had been steady down for a while but I got to know that when my condition got worse, the symptons appear still now.

But fortunatelly, I feel better my mind is calmly without depression :-)

Anyway, I'll take enough rest without thinking about my worries and negative things!

今日久しぶりに高校時代の先輩とメールでお話できて、すっごく懐かしかったの

先輩も高校の生徒会役員だったし、塾も同じで、2006年にAiが休学していた時に同じ塾の校舎で一緒に講師をしていたっていうこともあってか、卒業してからもこうやって連絡取り合えることがすごく嬉しいなぁって思うんだぁ

Aiの病気のことも気にかけてくれて感謝感謝

先輩だけじゃなく、Aiは本当に心が寛容で優しい友達に恵まれてるなぁって改めて実感したんだぁ

友達は本当に何にも変えられない大きな財産なんだよねこれからも人と人の繋がりを大事にして生きていきたいな

Today, I was so glad to enjoy talking with my senior in my high school by e-mail ;-)

He was also a member of the school council and we went to the same private school when we were high school student. And wha't more, when I was taking a one-year leave from the university to take enough rest because of my depression, we worked at the same private school as teacher.

That's why we can keep in touch after we graduated our high school XD I'm very happy to have such a wonderful relationship with him!!

And I do thank him that he take care of my condition as I talked about my present situation.

Not only the senior but also other my friends have generous and kind hearts, which makes me feel I'm so blessed!!

Good friends are irreplaceable treasure, I think! I do wanna live while loving the good relationship with my friends from now on, too!!

今日は友達と富山県内でホタルが見られる所（仁歩ほたるの里）へ遊びに行ってきたの

予想以上に沢山のホタルが乱舞してて、今夜は星もよく見えたから、ホタルと星の競演で本当に幻想的な世界だったの

結構沢山の子どもたちも見に来てて、楽しくはしゃいでる姿が微笑ましかったなぁ

こうやって沢山のホタルが生息できる自然を守るために、もっともっと環境の事考えて行動に移したいなぁって改めて考える事ができてよかったな

ホタルの動画はコチラから
A firefly

Happy smile


This evening, I went to a precious place we can see lots of fireflies with my friend ;-)

We were able to see much more dancing fireflies than we had expected and we got so impressed the fantastic view under the starry skies!!

And I felt it was a heartwarming scene that many children were enjoying watching the fireflies!!

I really thank that I thought about what I can do in order to protect the environment which fireflies can live in and I have to act for it because I do wanna show such a wonderful view to our next genarations!!

You can enjoy my video about a firefly! Please click here!

ここしばらく悩み事があって、色々考えていたのでも、やっと「自分がどうしたいのか」や「どうすべきか」って事が分かってスッキリ

話は変わって、2週間ほど前にラベンダーの苗を買って来て植えたんだけど、白い花が咲いてびっくり予想外だったし、「やっぱり紫色のも欲しいなぁ」って事で、今日ママが別の苗を買ってきてくれたの

2種類のラベンダー育てていくの楽しみだなぁ
Jet d'eau

Different kinds of lavenders


These days, I'd had a worry and had been thinking about what to do and what I wanna do. Then finally, I found my answer and now I feel so relieved ;-)

Because my sense of value and my way to live is very different from my partner's ones, I decided to quit beng with him. I felt that it was hard for me to share the same time with him since he didn't try to understand my illness...In other words, we had misunderstanding about depression.

BTW, I bought a young plant of lavender about 2 weeks ago but its flowers were white beyond my expectation LOL! As I wanted the perple one, Mom bought the one for me today ♥

I'm really looking forward to see two kinds of lavender's growth every day!!

今日は心療内科で診察とカウンセリング

なかなかAiのうつ病が回復してこないから、先生と一緒に試行錯誤が続いてるの

上手く病気と付き合っていけたらいいんだけど、やっぱり療養生活が長いと「どうしたら良くなるんだろう」って考えてしまう・・・

でも、こういう時こそ「焦らない事」が一番大事

診察が終わった後は美術館に行って日本画家「橋本関雪」の作品をママと鑑賞物凄く大きな屏風画も素敵だったけれど、Aiは関雪がスケッチした動物たちの絵が気に入ったの
In the garden of the museum


I went to the clinic to see the doctor and to take counseling today.

Since I've been suffering from the symptoms of depression, both my doctor and I have kept doing trial and error to make me feel better and get active...

It'll be good if I can live with my illness much better but as I've been under medical treatment, we tend to think what we shoud do to remove my tiredness.

However, like such situation, it's the most important not to hurry! When my condition was much worse, I wasn't able to even get up nor move. But now I can enjoy gardening, going outside to watch flowers, going to museums and so on when my condition is better. So I think my condition is getting better little by little while up and down.

Oh, I went to the mueum to watch art works of "Kansetsu Hashimoto" with Mom. His painting on huge folding screens were so dynamic and wonderful but I loved his sketches of cute animals XD!!

今日はラベンダー畑に行って、ラベンダーの摘み取りをしてきたの

ラベンダーの香りは大好きだから、乾燥させてポプリにして楽しむの

それと、芝生でのお昼寝も気持ちよかったなぁ木陰がとっても心地よかったよ
Pickin' lavenders

Today, I went to a garden of lavenders to pick some of them ;-)

Since I love the perfume of lavenders, I'll enjoy what I picked today as potpourri after I dry them!

And it was so comfortable to take a nap on the grass XD

実は先週の木曜日にコスモスの種を植えて、毎日観察しているんだけど、今日やっと芽を出してくれたの

本当にちっちゃいのに一生懸命生きてるから、見てるだけで元気をもらえるの

それと、ミニトマトも赤く色づいたのを発見いっぱい太陽の光浴びて、美味しくなぁれ

最近は、毎日畑の野菜や花々を見るのが、すごく楽しみなの
Such little sprouts of cosmoses!

Colored tomatoes!!


Last Thursday, I planted seeds od cosmos and I watch its growth every day ;-) And I was so happy to see that finally buds sprouted today!!!

Though they're very small, they live strongly so I can get power from them XD

And what's more, I found colored tomatoes, too!! I hope they'll be bathed in sunlight to get delicious!

Recently, I really enjoy going to our fields and take care of our vegitables and flowers ♪

Aiが愛用してるヘアケアアイテムのご紹介

以前、美容院で教えてもらって試してからお気に入りになったミルボンの「ディーセス　ノイ」のヘアニュートリエント

週1、2回のスペシャルトリートメントで、効果も抜群だし、いい香りで大好きなの
My favorite hair treatment


それと、以前にも紹介した、アリミノのアウトバストリートメントの「ピース」

Aiの髪はすごく乾燥してて痛みやすくて、アウトバストリートメントは毎日沢山使うから、今回はまとめ買いしたの

毛先までしっとりまとまるし、アクアローズの香りが心も髪も癒してくれるの
Out bath treatment; PEACE


Today I show you my favorite haircare products :D

When I went to the beauty salon before, my hairdresser introduced me new hair treatment of "DEESE'S NEU" by MILBON and I tried having my hair treatmented with the treatment at that time!

Because its effect was wonderful and its perfume made me so happy, I've loved it since then ♪

And my hair is tend to be dry so I use outbath-treatment a lot after taking bath and when I set my hair.

Therefore, I bought two bottles of "PEACE" by ALIMINO this time ;-)

It makes my hair velvetly and I'm so relaxed by its perfume of aqua-rose ♥ And I also love its name and the design of the bottle with a cute heart!!

富山県の剣岳が舞台になった、「剣岳　点の記」をパパとママと一緒に観に行ってきたの

想像以上に素晴らしい映画で、こんなにも実写の映像美にこだわった作品は、CGの技術が発達している現代ではなかなか見られない、貴重な作品で感動の連続だったの

四季折々の山の美しさや厳しさや、この映画作りに携わった全ての人達の一生懸命な想いが伝わってきて、心が洗われました
Refreshed!



My parents and I went to the movie theater to watch "Mt. Tsurugidake" which was set in Toyama I live in!

This movie is based on the real episode on the Meiji era and shows us the matter of survey of Mt. Tsurugidake to complete the map of Japan. And we can remember how important it is to have proud of ourselves, courage, kindness and how wonderful it is to live strongly with our belief.

I was so impressed to watch the movie because this film doesn't depend on computer graphics, which is very rare in the present day as the technique of CG is progressing!! I think we can hardly watch like this film which shows us the beauty of real images XD

Through watching this film, I thank that I got to know the beauty and strictness of the nature and I cought strong will of all the people who were involved in this film!

少し元気が出てきたから、今日はママと一緒に富山県立近代美術館に行って、企画展の「色彩は踊る 巨匠たちのパレットと作品」を観てきたの

久しぶりに美術館に行って、色んな画家の作品を楽しめて良かったなぁ

画家たちが実際に使っていたパレットを見ると、その人の個性が現れててすごく面白かったの
Enjoy Art!



Since my condition is getting better, I went to THE MUSEUM OF MODERN ART, TOYAMA with Mom to watch "Dancing of the Colours; Pallets and Works of the Masters of Oil painting"!

I was glad to go there after a long interval and to enjoy watching the exhibition which had various artists' works ;-)

As I saw their each pallets which they really used, I felt it was interesting to know their characters XD

夕方ママと少しドライブしてたら、窓から見える夕日がとっても綺麗で癒されたの

それと、家の近くでキジの親子にも出会えたの可愛かったなぁ

自然の美しさってやっぱり素晴らしいそしてこんなに豊かな自然の中で生きていられる事は本当に有難い
Beautiful sunset

Pheasants' family


When I was in Mom's car during her drive, I was healed to see the beautiful sunset from the window :-)

And then we found the family of pheasants near our house!!! They were so cute!

As you know, the beauty of the nature is the most wonderful in the world! And I feel I'm so blessed to live in such a rich natural environment!!

かれこれ２週間以上うつ状態が続いてて、めっきりベッドと仲良しになってしまったAiです

良く言えば、しっかり休養してるってこと

「ラベンダーやアジサイを観に行ったり、美術館に行ったりしたいなぁ」って気持ちはあるのに、頭痛や微熱や吐き気で体調が悪くて体が思うように動かないの

でも、こうやってしっかりと療養できる環境にいる事は有難い事だよね
Takin' rest


I've been suffering from depression for more over 2 weeks and I'm very friendly with my bed :-P

In other wards, I'm takin' good care of myself now.

Though I wanna go to some parks to see lavenders, colorful hydrangeras and go to museums to enjoy watching art works, I can't move as I hoped because of my bad condition such as heavy headache, nausea, slight fever and so on..

However, I thank that I'm given the great environment I can take enough rest!!